Super Tuesday!!!!

Ahhhhh I hate Tuesdays...just too much to do at work!!!! O well, I keep telling myself at least I have a job and a good one so I should consider myself lucky!!!!! I just need to vent today so here she goes....

So I keep getting Maureen's mail at my house. It is really starting to drive me a little nuts and it's been 2 months now. It's as if I just can't escape her, there always seems to be something there to remind me of her....not letting me put her completely out of my mind (which Brianne says I need not do as that would be denying the past but the constant reminders kill me sometimes). As if living in our house isn't enough...... If it's not something of hers that I find around the house and have to return, it's something she's returning to me, or a piece of mail labeled Maureen and Michael Fahrner, or something in the house like a cooking utensil that I knew I had at one time but can no longer find b/c she took it. Example: This weekend Jen and I, Tim, Liz, Brian, and Jackie went out to ZaZa's in Fox Lake to grab a good bite to eat. If any of you are in the Fox Lake area I highly recommend it! The food is wonderful, top notch!!! Brianne and Nan if you ever want to go sometime, gimme a ring it's on me. A few drinks....hahahaha more like a few shots, mixed drinks, and a few bottles of wine later, some great steaks and seafood, and a $400 bill we decided to go by my place for a little game night. Well to my surprise....well it really shouldn't have surprised me as nothing really does these days, but none the less, Mike no longer has a single game in his house!!! It's stuff like that which just drives me nuts these days..... O well I guess I'm still getting used to the change.... Regardless, the piece of mail I got last night I forwarded to Kenosha where she is living with her new boy toy (she didn't wait long) included a little note on the back of envelope stating my displeasure on how this was getting old. Is it really that hard to call your credit card company and bank to change your address? I think she just likes to mess with me.... She really is something else.....

So I've been thinking, it's going to be a rough month or so. The good old holiday's are coming up! I haven't spent a Thanksgiving or Christmas eve without her in the last three years. I guess it's just weird to think about, I'll be at my parents, everyone will have someone there, and it will be just me. Well me and my little man, but it is going to be really different to say the least.... I keep thinking about asking Jen to come by, but then I say slow down you don't need to rush things..... What do you guys think? She is going to be in Australia from Dec. 16th-Jan1st so Christmas and New Years is already out of the question, so again I'm back on my own. O well....I WILL SURVIVE.

Anyway I have to run, I guess I just felt like complaining and venting today. Hey even I get to be a little bitch sometimes hahahaha. It's been raining for two days and that always seems to bring me down a bit. They're talking about snow tomorrow and Friday!!!! Ahhhhh I'm not ready for the cold, wet, white stuff. Did I ever tell you guys I hate winter? I just want to go for a bike ride... I sooooo need to get the hell out of Illinois and do what I always wanted to do....live on the beach with the vast blue ocean out my front door. Any takers??? ¶ 6:16 AM